Sunday, March 3, 2013

Life may be tough....but I got a God that is tougher

I need to kneel more! 

Lately the only word that I can find to describe myself or my feelings is "unglued".  I am normally a much calmer, a much in control type personality and I am normally more grounded.  What the heck is going on with me?!?!?  Life has gotten tough and it has been challening but this is not the first time my life has had challenges.  Any way when Lent started I asked Loitton to participate in an exercise that I thought we might both benefit from.  Each night after dinner, we are to think of one positive in the thing we are thankful for and write it down.  On Easter morning we are going to look back on all of our post it notes and see how blessed we are.  Well we started on the exercise and the first few days were easy and going great.  Then on about day 12 we hit a wall!  Loitton had no comments and my disappointment in that kept me from wanting to see the positives in my day. Instead of making a big deal about it though I chose to record three days of his exercise as "no comment" and I recorded mine and we moved on.  During those three days I got an email from an online devotion that I read and it was advertising a devotion book called "Unglued".  It is a 60 day challenge to make wise choices in the midst of raw emotions.  It is a tool to help you be less loud when you are upset, less prone to stuff down bitterness and to realize all of this is a work in progress.  It said before you start the 60 day devotion to realize your emotions will still get messy but that is when grace steps in and wraps mercy around us and when we need God the most.  It clicked with me and I knew I need His help, the help that only God can provide and I need time spent with God.  I hope I am up for the challenge and I pray that God will work in me and through me and help me deal with challenging relationships and struggles.  I know God will do his part ....I just need to do mine.